:')

for a moment i just put my hand touching this keyboard without pushing without knowing what to write.....

till now..

LAST NIGHT 12.00a.m:U came to my house.U lay down next to me while u look deep inside my eyes and simply give 3 word "i love you".I cant really believe what u just do.Deep inside of me i want to but i cant.In return i say "i love you to".I just look at u.U knew that something bothering me.U knew every singel thing in my head."Enough.Im sorry for what i did.I've made a big mistake im sorry u say tht u over it why u do this to me? i will not made the same mistake again i promise plz believe me.im sorry.dont do this to me.....".Suddenly i kiss ur mouth.I wont let u end that words its hurt me..i cry."i love you"."plz stop crying its hurt me to see u like this i know you love me.i tak lari la syg.i ade kat sini.i sentiase ade ngn u.i tak nak break ngn u pon.dah ek tak nak lah nagis".U just keep hugging me and kiss me for the rest of the day.Now i realize that u are meant for me....

blue october-hate me lyric.

"Until I saw your blue eyes crying and I held your face in my hand
And then I fell down yelling "make it go away!"
Just make a smile come back and shine just like it used to be
And then she whispered "How can you do this to me?""
the same thing happen to me last nite.

last nite u beside me
next thing i knew u gone
why ?


i need to be alone for a moment.......

hurmmm

still thinking about him :'(
*sigh*

this day

telefon..telefon berbunyi...
hahaha :D

kejadian tengahari pada pukul 12.35 : telefon bimbit ku berbunyi..

"In the night, I hear them talk the coldest story ever told
Somewhere far along this road, he lost his soul
To a woman so heartless
How could you be so heartless
Oh, how could you be so heartless?"

lalu aku angkat.....

"helo?"
"helo...err Najah ade?"
"yes saye sape nie?"
"ni kak eila..driving school"
"owh ok"
"hari tuh gagal naik bukit je kan on d road lulus kan?"
"ya ya"
"ok next jpj test 24th jun nie tao"
"owh bukan 17?"
"17 nie penoh...tapi 24 je boleh kan?"
"ermm ok jew"
"ok 24 ek najah bye"
"bye"

hurm baring smbil pk....
rindunyer kat dia :)

pegang telefon.tekan butang contact.carik num abg hafiz.tekan butang call.

tutt...tuttt..tutt.

"helo"
"helo abg nie najah"
"owh yess"
"bile class tambahan saya?"
"sebelom buat jpj lah"
owh tapi free kan?"
"boleh tapi mcm biase lah hahaha"
"no hal"
"ok jew"
"ok lah abg hafiz bye later :)"
"ok bye :)"

pulang dan menagis

aku dalam dilema yg menikam jiwa.
aku tidak mampu berdiri di atas tanah ini
aku hanya mampu berdoa dan menagis

menagis lah wahai anak kecil
menagis sehingga kau puas
sehingga kau lega
menagis tika kau mampu

kemudian kau pulang
pulang dengan ketenagan
ketenangan dihati kecil
yg mampu mebuat kau tersenyum

hati dan jiwa ku tidak mampu menolak perasaan kecewa,takut dan duka
adakah aku sudah kalah?



p/s:kan best kalau bahagia tu tumbuh mcm pokok bunge :(

100 truths

The basic idea is to answer all of the 100 questions once someone tag you.


WHAT WAS YOUR:

1. Last beverage
; ice lemon tea 8D

2. Last phone call
; abg hafiz :) "abg bile class saye? nk cepat cikit aw plus free kan kan kan :D"
he answer "hahaha yelah free tapi buat btol2 ermm nnt abg conferm kan ok abg bz la kamis nie next week ok?:)"

3. Last text message
; S A B I Q !!! :)

4. Last song you listened to
; dgr lah lagu kt blog nie tu lah die :)

5. Last time you cried
;yesterday

HAVE YOU EVER:

6. Dated someone twice
;yes ;D

7. Been cheated on
;ya :(

8. Kissed someone & regretted it
; hahaha yes yes

9. Lost someone special
; i dont want to

10. Been depressed
; always :)

11. Been drunk and threw up
; drunk nope threw up yess :D

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLOURS:
12.red
13. pink
14. black

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2009)

15. Made a new friend
; yes :)

16. Fallen out of love
; upss last year :D

17. Laughed until you cried
; nope :(

18. Met someone who changed you
; not this year

19. Found out who your true friends were
; yeah

20. Found out someone was talking about you
; yes but they just make even more fam :D sorry biatch!

21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list
;yesssssss

22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life
; 10 only :D

23. How many kids do you want to have
; dude im toooo young lah

24. Do you have any pets
; yes 5 cat and 1 hamster

25. Do you want to change your name
; no way hozay

26. What did you do for your last birthday
; nothing

27. What time did you wake up today
; don't remember

28. What were you doing at midnight last night
; crying its a human nature :)

29. Name something you CANNOT wait for
; wake up next to YOU

30. Last time you saw your Mother
; just now FYI die tgh tido :D

31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life
; none

32. What are you listening to right now
; i kissed a girl!!! :D

33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom
; haha no -_-"

34. What's getting on your nerves right now
; nyamok yg teramat byk !!!!!! i hate u penghisap darah!

35. Most visited webpage
; myspace and blog! ;)

36. Whats your real name
;NAJAH SYAHIRAH

37. Nicknames
; syiera

38. Relationship Status
; taken

39. Zodiac sign
; Capricorn

40. Male or female?
; soalan bodoh! famale lah

41. Elementary?
; children's corner :) aww i miss it -_-"


43. High school/college?
; smks18 and Multimedia College

44. Hair colour
; always changing :)

45. Long or short
; totally SHORT :D

46. Height
; 156cm ;)

47. Do you have a crush on someone?
;hahaha

48. What do you like about yourself?
;im flirty but only for him :) as long im with him

49. Piercings
; ears

50. Tattoos
; nope

51. Righty or lefty
; i'm Right

FIRSTS :

52. First surgery
; none

53. First piercing
; ears

54. First best friend
;zetty then lina :)

55. First sport you joined
; hockey

56. First subject fav
; math always :D

58. First person teaches how to swim
; dady!!! :D

RIGHT NOW

59. Eating
; nope

60. Drinking
; no

61. I'm about to
; making my to do list for this month :( Gosh im busy lah :(

62. Listening to
; my voice in my mind :D

63. Waiting on
; FUTURE

YOUR FUTURE :

64. Want kids?
; ofcourse

65. Get Married?
; scared :(

66. Career?
'will do :)

WHICH IS BETTER :

67. Lips or eyes
; eyes and lips

68. Hugs or kisses
kiss :)

69. Shorter or taller
; i dont care

70. Older or Younger
; mature-er lol :P

71. Romantic or spontaneous
; both ;)

72. Nice stomach or nice arms
;i dont care

73. Sensitive or loud
; sensitively LOUD haha

74. Hook-up or relationship
; relationship

75. Trouble maker or hesitant
; im trouble maker and i need sumone hesitant me ;)

HAVE YOU EVER :
76. Kissed a stranger
;no way!!

77. Drank hard liquor
; noway hozay

78. Lost glasses/contacts
; i lost a glass, but it wasn't mine :P

79. Sex on first date
; yes

80. Broken someone's heart
; don't tell me you haven't?

82. Been arrested
; yes

83. Turned someone down
; yeah

84. Cried when someone died
; typical

85. Fallen for a friend?
; nope :)


DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

86. Yourself
; how do you expect ppl to believe you when you don't believe yourself? kan kan? :)

87. Miracles
; love it

88. Love at first sight
; bodoh! :D

89. Heaven
; yes

90. Santa Claus
; tipo tipo

91. Kiss on the first date
; yes

92. Angels
; :)


ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:

94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time
; yes

95. Did you sing today?
;yes

96. Ever cheated on somebody?
;yes

97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go?
; nope i will not

98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be?
; 30 oct 2008 he knw it :D

99. Are you afraid of falling in love?
; honestly, yes

100. Posting this as 100 truths?
; ok :)