DRESS

hari nie aku happy sikit :) dh dua hari aku melalui depression haha :)sbb tu aku bia kan saje blog nie tersadai ;p sbb aku dh x happi kt shah alam aku pon x tau asl :( ok lah hari ni aku baru je beli dress on9 hahaha i dont care i nk beli jugak!!!

dress nie utk kak ipa.aku cian nenok die.die baru mengandong so nthing fit her rite now..and die dh byk tlg aku so ape slh nyer hadiah kan die dress nie cantik sgt boleh hide her figure yg barulepas bersalin tuh ;p

so xkn nk beli kan utk kak je abis aku? so aku beli lah satu haha really nice+sexy hehe :) olehkerane bufdy one of my frens is upcoming so i beli dress utk di pki.I love looking great in any occasion.Plus aku berconfident bile berpakaian seperti yg aku mahu rite :)

dah tu je buat hari nie :) x sabar nk pki dress ku :D

THIS IS ME

Penat lah aku hari ni..aku terlalu bz menjadi diri kau smpi terlupe kan makna diri aku sendiri.Tapi sekarang aku dh pon mencari erti diri ku. Aku hanya aku! Now i can live my dream and become the person that i dream to be that is ME no more hiding alone in the dark or other shadow!




HAHA! aku penat sebenarnyer byk sgt keje yg aku kene catch-up.Kene jage baby abg aku.Fuh jage budak bukan senang tapi aku tetap buat sbb syg pny psl.skrg lak aku tgh gado ngn kak aku n hubby die skali come on lah xkan aku nk jadi hambe dia spnjg hidop aku tlg lah aku penat ok.Lagi ssatu preparation utk g college pon belom siap..!!! OMG byk nyer!! sakit hati kuh!! Lagi satu boleh aku mimpi sabiq mintak break up ngn aku oh why God!! Aku gtau die haha die kate sumpah xkn curang and break ngn aku huh! btol ka? DONO lah stupid tol!! anyway aku kat sini nk gtau aku akan ada kehidupan aku lepas nie akan berjalan ke arah kemahuan aku (huh! i hope so!) and and and aku akan away selame semggu sebab pergi perak!!!! haha bye u all!!! and and lepas ni aku akan lebih bz hopefully korg faham and i miss my lina ,yan,hellena,uncle shaq!!!!

SUMTHING I LEARN

Hari ni bangon pukul 6.38.Still baring kat atas katil termenung.Pikirkan tentang kehidupan i.Perasan x kite hidup hanya sekali? Kenape kite perlu buat mende yg kite x suke rite? Kenape kite perlu belajar bende yg kite x nk.Adakah kite sanggup ada perasan menyesal seumur hidup? Its like hidup tersekse..Dah mati lagi seksa kene seksaan kubur rite? so kite jgn lah nk pilih sesuatu atas dasar ini yg parent nk.Abis apa yg u nk?Itu hidup u atau mereka?Adakah u all nk hidup di alam pekerjaan yg korg rase terseksa.Time keje x sabar nk balik rumah,xsabar nk demam or sakit..its stupid tau..mende ni bukan i sesuka hati ckp tapi ini lah yg terjadi pada my sister...so mulai dari skrg i x nk ikut kehendak orang atau buat sekadar jaga hati orang i x nk lagi..semua ini perlu berubah.I akan belajar atas kemahiran,kemahuan, dan semua atas dasar i !! I want get out and see the whole world let me learn by my own mistake that i hv done.Let no one make my mistake.

*mood:accomplished song:never be the same again*

SORRY

5 WORD I MUST SAY
S.O.R.R.Y
im sorry for the thing's i do
im sorry for all my mistake
im sorry i make u sad

im sorry for all bad thing i say

sygg im sorry psl smlm i buat u sedih.i x berniat suruh u pergi mampus~ i x sengaje i knw i salah.wlaupon bende kecik i tetap marah u.Tapi i sygg u tau x? i just nk spent time ngn u.Wlaupon u tahan tido sbb nk cll i still i marah u.Arghhh!!! what's wrong with me!! am i to stupid to see u are so in love with me???!!!! even tho i marah u i caci u i maki u i suruh u pergimati u till say tht u love me..and i teros suruh u pergi tido.Then u terjage pukul 3 pagi u sent msg "i miss u im sorri kalau i ade buat slh kt u".Terharu hati i bile u buat mcm tuh.. Walaupondgn mate yg mengntok tu u still hantar msg OMG uuu!! i minx maaf sgt2!!! i x tau nk ckp mcm mne i sygg u i cinta u i x nk marah u lagi!!! u x buat slh i yg slh!!! :( im sorry!!!

THE MOMENT TO BE

i miss my life being myself not afraid to cry,to having big laugh,having time to be alone and having nervous breakdown..

but now i have to be a fake doll.
just have to pretend..
smiling and everything will work out..
i feel like im having one big hole in my life
its empty...

Today i feel really down.baby afiq baru je balik tadi.i miss him.even he is my ank buah but i sygg die.!!and i still byk mende i perlu buat.tapi rite now everything i buat semuenyer x betol..semuenyer slh.i rase x sedap hati.huh hari nie i btol2 seday sgt~i xtau knp?.....i need my space to be alone..
Tapi..i rase nk main buaian :)
sbb bile i swing i rase everything yg buat i stress semuanyer akan hilang huh~i need that feeling again..

HELL-0

hye bloggers;
sorri lame x update my blog msti bosan kan ngn blog lame i~:)
well lots of thing, i mean really THE BIGGEST thing are happen to my life lately~
rase mcm nk kill myself jew sbb mende yg happen mukan kecik~....firstly lets talk about college.I akan bla ke sane pada 1julai nie.I dh pon dpt msok MMC(multimedia college) amik diploma of creative new media x sangke dan terlintas di minda boleh jadi budak art~ hahaha..seriously~!! so my daddy just support in evrything i like and can do~so i really appreciated what he hv done here..most likely or eventually dia slalu marah but now dia a bit more open minded sikit~ well after all its im the one that gonna pay my PTPN and this my life we talk about..what mostly i like about this college is dia tengah bandar haha senang nk merayap mcm x cukup tanah but i thing i get pretty bz with all the assignment kot haha IDK but still i ade deep feeling bout that anyway this cost really suit my soul in every way~ when i was really in depression,i always express myself in drawing ,painting & making sumthing in a pieces of paper..i thing rite now i can make money of it..ok and other thing is about my brother i thing its really personal but i have to let it get out of my mind!!!dia nk tukar religion menjadi ATHESIS. !!
u can click and find out ur self..and my dad bawa dia pergi jumpe kaunsler~ huh lame2 hilang lah tuh.. well i dont want to talk about this cuz im a muslim and i malu dgn abg yg menjadi murtad huh~well that is about now...i dh seday sgt nk ckp lame2 ok if u hv any idea mcm mne nk pulihkandie plzz jgn malu comments ok? :)

see ya ;D

memories never end

DAY:WEDNESDAY TIME:10.00a.m-05.30p.m

haha the best day ever with my bestfren..hang out ngn korg adelah perkare pling best di dunia :)
hari ni kiteorg g skolah amik cop pengesahan sijil~ tapi ckgu x dew its ok then i g umah LINA!! best haha die mekap kan i n segalah :) then kiteorg g umah yan plak amik die teross kiteorg g PAK LI~ mkn chicken chop :) and choc milk shake x silap ah whatever lah asl sedap!!!LINA belanje dohhh!! love u guys a lotssss!!!





sambil mkn2 ina suap kan i haha jgn jealos buekk :p hahaha i love her so much she is the best damn thing i ever have!! LEPAS dah syok mkn abis dh kenyang pown dh kiteorg g beli brg biase lah pompuan nk beli brg2 mekap lah dye rambot lah haha

g gaint jap~

sumpah penat seyh!!!!!!
xtau nk ckp cmner jln kaki tuh bebeh~:D
xpenah2 kiteorg jln jauh!!!
ni plak picture time kt umah i~
nie lina and yan..
i buat kan cookies utk diorg~!!:D
i miss u guys a lot
i wish i could freeze the moment and live it everyday~

THE MAGIC :)

HELLO PEOPLE!!WELCOME TO MY CRIBS :)

haha not my crib la just my room :)
hahaha first i nk tunjuk my fluffy bed ;Dthe best thing in my room:)
lots of magic happen if u knw what i mean ;D
hahaha
then i wanna show u my furry fren ;)
im not a big fans of teddies but all that are from my friends
hahaha
pink;fizi
brown;sabiq<3

AND CLOTS OMG!!~~THIS IS ELL-OH-VEE-EE

&& MORE!!!

THAN WE HAVE.......
BAGZZZZZZ ade 1 bakol khas utk bag~:)
ala lupe nk snap picture kasot :)

& this one di atas meje tidor :)


*i hope u all buat mende nie jugak*

FUN TIME

What would you say is your worst flaw?
how bout u tell me :)

How many times a week do you shower?
14 time ;D

Would you say that people consider you a major flirt?
HAHA sumtimes ;)

Are you fluent in a language other than your native?
kind da~

Would you rather listen to black metal or country?
OH plss black metal~

What color are your underware?
sexy and superl delicious red, can u see it?? i dont think so~:D

How many uncles do you have?
to lazy to count~

Do you know how to Salsa dance?
no i can do pole dancing :D haha just kindding ya~

Whats your favorite flavor ice-cream?
choclate+peanuts and lil bit of strawberry syrup ade x? :D

Name one of your hobies?
made my mom going nutsszzz HAHA
love mommy ;)

What is your biggest worry in life right now?
lose sumone i love

If you could re-live one memory what would it be?
time habis SPM :)
best gile!!!

Do you give up easily?
nope
i will keep trying till death come..

What is your lucky number?
do i have one? :D

Do beans give you gas?
i dont think so :)

What are your parents middle names?
they dont have one

Which of your cousins is closest to your age?
should i care?? -__-" im not close with my cousin sorry ok?
they think im a bitchy,spoilt-BRAT kid living in the big city~
so i didnt knw them very well i even didnt knw their age
pfft
mybe mira kot~

Are you friends with anyone named Nicole?
nope

What is the closest red item to you?
undiess :)

If you are married where is your husband right now?
in a bed with me doing sumthing FUN!! ;D

What kind of computer do you have?
acer~

Do you subscribe to HBO channels?
yes why?

How many credit cards do you have?
i dont own any creadit card~!
i hate it

Do you enjoy doing laundry?
HELLL NO!!

Do you like a warm or hot shower?
warm please~:)

What color is the carpet in your house?
colourful~ :D

Whats is the weather like right now?
warm~

What year was your dad born?
1953

If your best friend ditched you to go to the movies with her boy friend would it make you angry?
ya
but still i let it go~


Are you happy with your relationship status?
HELL ya!!:D

If you got pregnant at this age and your man left you, would you keep the baby?
OMG yesss!!
im not a killer!!!

What celeb would you want to spend the day with?
should i?

If you had your own TV show what would it be called?
malas nk pk :)

What would be the title of your autobiography?
Girl that pleasent to ur eyes but she suffer to her own eyes :)

COOL RITE?

Who is the last person you held hands with?
sabiq

Who is the last person to talk to you on the phone?
sabiq

What does the 12th text message in your inbox say?
"kul 7 kejot ok u?"

Have you ever been to a concert?
duh~
ofcuz penah~

What colors would you like to have at your weding?
white+ nude cream

Do you work out?
sumtimes

Are you in shape?
i have curve

Honestly, have you ever had more than one gf/bf at a time?
yes :)
use too ok~

Have you ever kissed another girl/boy while dating someone?
yes
use too~

What is your favorite magizine?
cleo
seventeen

What subject in school are/were you best in?
math's

What is your favorite color?
black,white,red

What is your advice for Britney Spears?
dont let anyone break u into a pieces just go for it i always love u!!

What is your favorite movie of all time?
i am sam

Have you ever kissed a person of the same sex?
HAHA
hardly i must say YES..

Do you smoke?
yes
use to

Do you drink?
nope

Do your parents know?
no way!!!

do this survey its fun

MADE ME UR CUPPCAKES

Nyum nyum sedap nyer~
nie cuppcake vanilla~:D
bukan i buat pown !
haha

tapi i tau resepi die and i pon dh buat dh cedap oh!!!



BAHAN-BAHAN :)

• tepong naik sendiri(ayak dulu)
• vanilla essen
• gula(gula pasir pon boleh kalau x de gule halus)
• buttercup(kalau keras ketok kt kepale korang sampai cair ;p)
• susu
• chocolate chip.(suke atilah nk masok kan atau x)
  
• telur(ikut berape byk kite nk buat kalau setakat buat utk 3org 1 telur dh cukup)

CARA-CARA :)

1. Mule amik 2 sudu buttercup masok lam mangkok! campur dengan gule 4 sudu tau!!
2. Then sebati kan gaul lah~ tengok dah sebati ok lah tu~
3. Amik telur putih SAHAJA!!! kacau bagi kembang(die buih2 then dah x rupe telor dah)
4. Telur tadi masok kan dgn buttercup+gule tadi then kacau lam speed sederhana bile dh btol2 sebati bersame(dh jadi mcm krim) then campur plak esen vanilla smpi bau naik cukup dlm 1 sudu besa pastu korg gune speed max plak.
5. Tepong yg dah ayak tadi masok kan sikit demi sedikit kat lam telor+butter+gule yg dh jadi mcm krim tuh tadi TAPI dlm speed minimum..
6. Lepas tu masok kan susu jgn byk sgt tau nnt cair sgt nanti cuppcake jadi terlalu lembek.
7. Then kacau gune speed max dlm 3 minit..lepas tu campur kan chip chocolate and kacau pki tgn sahaja.
8. Masok kan lah lam cup setengah cup je nnt die kembang sendiri.Then bake la die gune oven pon boleh dlm mase 30 minit
9. Kalau x sure dh masak atau x amik pencukil gigi cucuk die kalau isi kat dlm melekat kt cungkil tadi belom masak lah tuh~

ICING?
x payah susah2 beli krim putar
letak dekat atas cuppcake
then letak M&M
dah ciap
xpon letak strawberri lagi sedap..
KALAU nk mkn segere lah :D

ok ok syiera gtau jugak lah~

BAHAN ICING

• gula icing
• buttercup
• telor putih
• pewarna(kalau nk putih x yah taruk pewarne)

CARA-CARA

1. Butter cair kan..
2. Campur plak ngn telor putih(yg dah kacau smpi kembang) gune speed sederhana
3. Dah jadi krim sile letak gula icing sedikit demi sedikit smpi cukup rase sedap jgn byk tau nnt manis sgt!! then putar smpi lebam hahaha x lah smpi die sebati lah
4. Campur pewarne(jike suke)
5. Gaul smpi jadi mcm krim.
6. Dah siap so letak kt ats cuppcake guna kesenian korg:)
   

*well senang kan cuppcake syiera*
(nampak mcm byk sgt kerje padahal tidak sebenarnyer)

DRIVING LESSON FROM MY DADDY

*mood:happy song:crazy*



tadi papa i ajar driving
then papa ajar garang sgt lah~
nk nagis jew :(
tapi x pew la nk pandai kan
so i sanggup buat ape sajew~
then papa ajar mcm die ajar budak laki ganas tau!!
pastu tibe2 ade kete nie
die dh pandai la bwk
die bwk laju gile smpai nk langgar kite i~!!
papa i begang die bawak laju
then teros sipi2 nk langgar kete die
haha~
papa i pendendam tao!!

then balik jew
papa pergi Gaint
ade la org dari gaza
so i kesian sgtt~
dah la papa x tggl duit~
nk bagi ape ek?
i bagi la duit dari dompet abg~
haha
baru lege sikit hati
knp i nie hati lembot sgttt!!
arghhh~
mencik!!
tapi i btol2 kesian la nenok org tuh die kate
ank die sakit berlumuran darah
nk tido pon xdew selimut
xkesah la ade org kate org yg mintak sedekah tu tipu
wlaupon kite kene tipu atau x
yg penting niat di hati kite btol nk tlg org~
hurmm~

kesian org kat sane susah x mcm kite~
senang semue adew
esh org yahudi btol2 jahil lah~!!
jahat binatang pon ade sikap kemanusian~!

KEMASOKAN UNIVERSITY

(sori picture blur x tau asal..)
well ni lah salah satu tawaran yg i dapat~
semue org dpt yg same jugak~

knp i tunjuk yg nie ek?
ok lah nie kerane....

i teringin sgt nk blaja luar negare~


hidup jauh~ :)

hermm~

*TENTANG UNIVERSITI INI*

• firstly u nie name nyer UNITY....
• then dia tawarkan i ade tige je...
• first BACHELOR OF MANAGMENT,di Universuty Of Ballarat,AUSTRALIA
• secondly BACHELOR OF BUSINESS,di University Of Ballarat,AUSTRALIA
• Last; BACHELOR OF SCINENCE(HONS) BUSNIESS INFOMATION SYSTEM,di University Of East London,UK
• PTPN hanya bgi rm48000 utk belajar(belum termasok elaun sara diri)
• 4 tahun 8 semester blaja teros DEGREE ok..

so ape pendapat u all?
amik or tidak?
atau amik ipta/ipts malaysia sahaja?
help me plzz

THE BEST DAY

first of all i nk gtau knpe i letak picture piggy..
sebab time skolah dulu2 helen suke pggil i piggy
bukan nyer mcm kuang aja
tapi helen tuh suke buli i
hahaha
best tau






knpe helen pggil cmtuh?
ok lah sebab die i suke buat bunyik mcm piggy
haha
ina kate kalau buat suare mcm tu t ilang ngatok
hakhak
dh berjangkit penyakit nan ina
penyakit BLUR~
haha
pastu helen kate kt semua org yg i nie piggy belaan die
kuang asam
tapi xpew i xkesah dibuli mc tuh
i pown suke kacau die jugak tapi i gak yg sakit hati~
die tuh terer lam buli membuli nieh hehe..

sebenarnyer hari ni best tu yg nk cite nie :)
tadi g tumb print kt driving school~
tapi abg hafiz ckp pukul 10 tggu die kat tepi simpang..






dah pukul 10.02
alamak!!!
dah lambat~!!
i x suke org tggu i~
i kesian nenok org tggu i sbb i tumpang die~
i pon bekejar g simpang tepi umah i..
dtg jew nenok abg hafiz x dew lagi nasib baik~
jam tunjuk pukul 10.30
perghh~ lambat nyer dh la panas plak tu xpew
tumpang kan~
so saba jew...





jeng jeng jeng
abg hafiz dtg~
g la driving school~
dah tumb print sume dh selesai~
sabiq text...
die minx tlg~
die minx spanar saiz 10..
i ckp tggu i balik t i bagi~
huh susah baru carik~
boys always be boys~
abg hafiz ajak g kantin
i ingt die nk beli rokok~

TAPI!!!





die nk blanje mkn srapan pagi~
hehehe
best nyer dh la hensem baek plak tuh~
peramah
hahaha
tapi die dh kwin so ade lah batas nyer
'hehe~





dalam i tgh syok mkn smbil nenok muke abg hafiz
hati x sedap jew~
knp??
sbb tgh syok i mkn sabiq dlm kesusahan
mne sedap kan~
yelah die minx tlg tapi i g mkn ngn boy hensem
huh~
mukan ape tapi die ajak mkn & i tumpang die~
xpela t i balik lah~
mukan mcm die(sabiq)
bleh die enjoy mkn time i nagis2 psl die~!!
huh~
tulah boys always be boys~
i mukan nagis saje2 risau psl die tau~

jam dh pukul 11.05
adus bile la abg hensem nie nk abis mkn~
last skali die ajak g naek kete
nk anta balik dh~


dlm pukul 11.15 i smpi~
i teros call sabiq
suruh dtg rumah amik spana~
then die minx duit sikit
i bagi je brape i ade~





dia dtg ngn mmbr die~
lepak2 jap smbil tu i blasah die
tumbuk la,
sepak lah,
tampa se mue ade
hehe
die senyap jew~
bia padan muke~

dh die nk balik
g repair moto mmbr die sbb die gune smpi rosak~
die salam i
and he kiss my hand
uhhh~
romantic hehe
then kat ats moto die jerit
"I LOVE U LAH SYGGG!!!!"






"I LOVE U LAH TOO!!!!"*dlm hati je xkn nk jerit segan lah mamat tuh muke tebal xpew*

BE BLESS

U S E L E S S | I N F O R M A T I O N
Name:NAJAH SYAHIRAH BINTI ZULKIFLI
Single or taken:COMPLICATED TO TELL
Sex:FEMALE
Birthday:29 DIS 1991
Sign:CAPRICORN
Siblings:IM THE LAST ONE FROM 4 SIBS.
Hair color:BROWN ORIGINALLY BUT NOW A LIL BIT OF RED :D
Eye color:FULL BLACK
Height:ONLY 156CM SHORTiii HAHA!!

R E L A T I O N S H I P S
Are you straight/bisexual/gay?:STRAIGHT WHY?
Who are your best friends?:LINA<333

F A S H I O N | S T U F F
Where is your favourite place to shop for clothes:ONE UTAMA,SUNWAY PIRAMID & BUKIT BINTANG.
Any tattoos or piercings:NO TATTOO BUT I HAVE 3 PIERCING ON RIGHT EAR & 1 PIERC ON LEFT EAR
What is your most comfortable outfit?:MINI DRESS
What do you usually wear?:MINI DRESS

S P E C I F I C S
Do you do drugs?:NOPE
What kind of shampoo do you use?:REJOICE WHY DO U SMELL MY HAIR? HAHA
What are you most scared of?:GOD
What are you listening to right now:YOUR CALL -COVER-
Who is the last person that you called?:SABIQ
Who is the last person that called you?:SABIQ
Where do you want to get married?:HURMM HOTEL I GUESS~

F A V O R I T E S
Colors:BLACK,WHITE,RED.
Foods:SALAD :)
Movies:I AM SAM,RUN FOREST RUN,MUHKSIN,SEPET,GUBRA
Animals:EVERY SINGEL ONE OF THEM EXCEPT PIG EYEUWW~

H A V E | Y O U | E V E R
Given anyone a bath?:NOPE :p
Smoked?:TWICE.EVRYONE MAKE MISTAKE OK!
Bungee jumped?:LOVE TOO.
Ever been in love?:TO MANY TIMES.IT DOES HURT MYSELF.BUT I JUST KEEP TRYING.
Cried when someone died?:YESS
Lied:DO U CARE?? DUH~ OFCOZ LA PENAH!!
Fallen for your best friend?:NOPE
Rejected someone?:YESS IM SORRY
Used someone?:AGAIN IM SORRY OK!
Done something you regret?:I MADE MISTAKE BUT NOT ONCE I REGRET IT :)

C U R R E N T
Clothes:SHORT AND TEE
Music:YOUR CALL-COVER-


L A S T | P E R S O N
You texted:SABIQ
You kissed:I DONT REMEMBER(im telling a lie rite now)
You cuddled with:DONT GIVE A DAMN BOUT IT (im telling a lie rite now)


*p/s:lina suruh buat kalau x jadi katak=)*

LOVE UR LIFE

*mood:confusing song:stars are blind:)*






well today i lapang sikit sebab baru lepas abis kan ceramah teori for driving~
next week dpt la lesen L and boleh la blja driving amali 10jam~
huhu~






tapi a little bit stress coz i ni mcm ESCAPE ROUTE for everyone~
my daddy suke sgt mara i urghh~ bengang tau i rase cam nk bla je dari rumah nie~
tapi tggu je i dpt tawaran uitm~





then ade guy nie pown suke mara i~
bile die susah carik i bile senang g kat member die
i mean who am i to him?
come on im not dumb~
then die buat i nie mcm nk lepas mara die jew~
bile ade mslh baru carik i~
then harap kan i tlg
hye! where's ur BESTFRIENDS now??
huh!!
damn it dude im not ur shit ok!!





tapi nk tau tak
i tetap tlg~
why??
sbb mmg perangai i mcm tuh~
i tetap tlg wlaupon menyusah kan i~
huh~
i guess that's come from my mom kot.





anyway lepas tlg i ckp jgn buat i mcm tu lagi
but he never listen~
like he always does.
dia ckp dia xde luck~
well our life is not about luck
but its about hardwork!!!
work ur ass off dude!!!
then u talk about luck ok!
mintak pada tuhan pon x nk ckp psl luck!
sorri lah~





and my daddy~
GOD sumtimes my dad so annoying!!
dia slalu marah i even salah mcm semot~
but dia x kn marah my brother sbb takot dia drop study~!
what??
that a lames excuse and stupid one to~
arghh~
i hate it~
sumtimes we up in da sky and sumtimes down just like in hell~
whatever lah~
that just my life work out~
one thing good about myself haha~
*blushing*
i never give up!!!
my teacher always say
"ALLAH tidak memberi dugaan melebihi tahap kemampuan umat-NYA"
hurmm~
btol x? haha
even i down nk mampos i always igt ape yg ustazah i ckp~
hehe
life is hard so we must be stronger than we thought :)