Monday, June 15, 2009


for a moment i just put my hand touching this keyboard without pushing without knowing what to write.....

till now..

LAST NIGHT 12.00a.m:U came to my house.U lay down next to me while u look deep inside my eyes and simply give 3 word "i love you".I cant really believe what u just do.Deep inside of me i want to but i cant.In return i say "i love you to".I just look at u.U knew that something bothering me.U knew every singel thing in my head."Enough.Im sorry for what i did.I've made a big mistake im sorry u say tht u over it why u do this to me? i will not made the same mistake again i promise plz believe sorry.dont do this to me.....".Suddenly i kiss ur mouth.I wont let u end that words its hurt me..i cry."i love you"."plz stop crying its hurt me to see u like this i know you love me.i tak lari la syg.i ade kat sini.i sentiase ade ngn u.i tak nak break ngn u pon.dah ek tak nak lah nagis".U just keep hugging me and kiss me for the rest of the day.Now i realize that u are meant for me....

blue october-hate me lyric.
"Until I saw your blue eyes crying and I held your face in my hand
And then I fell down yelling "make it go away!"
Just make a smile come back and shine just like it used to be
And then she whispered "How can you do this to me?""
the same thing happen to me last nite.

Saturday, June 13, 2009

last nite u beside me
next thing i knew u gone
why ?

i need to be alone for a moment.......

Friday, June 12, 2009


still thinking about him :'(

Thursday, June 11, 2009

this day

telefon..telefon berbunyi...
hahaha :D

kejadian tengahari pada pukul 12.35 : telefon bimbit ku berbunyi..

"In the night, I hear them talk the coldest story ever told
Somewhere far along this road, he lost his soul
To a woman so heartless
How could you be so heartless
Oh, how could you be so heartless?"
lalu aku angkat.....

"helo...err Najah ade?"
"yes saye sape nie?"
"ni kak eila..driving school"
"owh ok"
"hari tuh gagal naik bukit je kan on d road lulus kan?"
"ya ya"
"ok next jpj test 24th jun nie tao"
"owh bukan 17?"
"17 nie penoh...tapi 24 je boleh kan?"
"ermm ok jew"
"ok 24 ek najah bye"

hurm baring smbil pk....
rindunyer kat dia :)

pegang telefon.tekan butang contact.carik num abg hafiz.tekan butang call.

"helo abg nie najah"
"owh yess"
"bile class tambahan saya?"
"sebelom buat jpj lah"
owh tapi free kan?"
"boleh tapi mcm biase lah hahaha"
"no hal"
"ok jew"
"ok lah abg hafiz bye later :)"
"ok bye :)"

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

pulang dan menagis

aku dalam dilema yg menikam jiwa.
aku tidak mampu berdiri di atas tanah ini
aku hanya mampu berdoa dan menagis

menagis lah wahai anak kecil
menagis sehingga kau puas
sehingga kau lega
menagis tika kau mampu

kemudian kau pulang
pulang dengan ketenagan
ketenangan dihati kecil
yg mampu mebuat kau tersenyum

hati dan jiwa ku tidak mampu menolak perasaan kecewa,takut dan duka
adakah aku sudah kalah?

p/s:kan best kalau bahagia tu tumbuh mcm pokok bunge :(

100 truths

The basic idea is to answer all of the 100 questions once someone tag you.


1. Last beverage
; ice lemon tea 8D

2. Last phone call
; abg hafiz :) "abg bile class saye? nk cepat cikit aw plus free kan kan kan :D"
he answer "hahaha yelah free tapi buat btol2 ermm nnt abg conferm kan ok abg bz la kamis nie next week ok?:)"

3. Last text message
; S A B I Q !!! :)

4. Last song you listened to
; dgr lah lagu kt blog nie tu lah die :)

5. Last time you cried


6. Dated someone twice
;yes ;D

7. Been cheated on
;ya :(

8. Kissed someone & regretted it
; hahaha yes yes

9. Lost someone special
; i dont want to

10. Been depressed
; always :)

11. Been drunk and threw up
; drunk nope threw up yess :D

13. pink
14. black


15. Made a new friend
; yes :)

16. Fallen out of love
; upss last year :D

17. Laughed until you cried
; nope :(

18. Met someone who changed you
; not this year

19. Found out who your true friends were
; yeah

20. Found out someone was talking about you
; yes but they just make even more fam :D sorry biatch!

21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list

22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life
; 10 only :D

23. How many kids do you want to have
; dude im toooo young lah

24. Do you have any pets
; yes 5 cat and 1 hamster

25. Do you want to change your name
; no way hozay

26. What did you do for your last birthday
; nothing

27. What time did you wake up today
; don't remember

28. What were you doing at midnight last night
; crying its a human nature :)

29. Name something you CANNOT wait for
; wake up next to YOU

30. Last time you saw your Mother
; just now FYI die tgh tido :D

31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life
; none

32. What are you listening to right now
; i kissed a girl!!! :D

33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom
; haha no -_-"

34. What's getting on your nerves right now
; nyamok yg teramat byk !!!!!! i hate u penghisap darah!

35. Most visited webpage
; myspace and blog! ;)

36. Whats your real name

37. Nicknames
; syiera

38. Relationship Status
; taken

39. Zodiac sign
; Capricorn

40. Male or female?
; soalan bodoh! famale lah

41. Elementary?
; children's corner :) aww i miss it -_-"

43. High school/college?
; smks18 and Multimedia College

44. Hair colour
; always changing :)

45. Long or short
; totally SHORT :D

46. Height
; 156cm ;)

47. Do you have a crush on someone?

48. What do you like about yourself?
;im flirty but only for him :) as long im with him

49. Piercings
; ears

50. Tattoos
; nope

51. Righty or lefty
; i'm Right


52. First surgery
; none

53. First piercing
; ears

54. First best friend
;zetty then lina :)

55. First sport you joined
; hockey

56. First subject fav
; math always :D

58. First person teaches how to swim
; dady!!! :D


59. Eating
; nope

60. Drinking
; no

61. I'm about to
; making my to do list for this month :( Gosh im busy lah :(

62. Listening to
; my voice in my mind :D

63. Waiting on


64. Want kids?
; ofcourse

65. Get Married?
; scared :(

66. Career?
'will do :)


67. Lips or eyes
; eyes and lips

68. Hugs or kisses
kiss :)

69. Shorter or taller
; i dont care

70. Older or Younger
; mature-er lol :P

71. Romantic or spontaneous
; both ;)

72. Nice stomach or nice arms
;i dont care

73. Sensitive or loud
; sensitively LOUD haha

74. Hook-up or relationship
; relationship

75. Trouble maker or hesitant
; im trouble maker and i need sumone hesitant me ;)

76. Kissed a stranger
;no way!!

77. Drank hard liquor
; noway hozay

78. Lost glasses/contacts
; i lost a glass, but it wasn't mine :P

79. Sex on first date
; yes

80. Broken someone's heart
; don't tell me you haven't?

82. Been arrested
; yes

83. Turned someone down
; yeah

84. Cried when someone died
; typical

85. Fallen for a friend?
; nope :)


86. Yourself
; how do you expect ppl to believe you when you don't believe yourself? kan kan? :)

87. Miracles
; love it

88. Love at first sight
; bodoh! :D

89. Heaven
; yes

90. Santa Claus
; tipo tipo

91. Kiss on the first date
; yes

92. Angels
; :)


94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time
; yes

95. Did you sing today?

96. Ever cheated on somebody?

97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go?
; nope i will not

98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be?
; 30 oct 2008 he knw it :D

99. Are you afraid of falling in love?
; honestly, yes

100. Posting this as 100 truths?
; ok :)

L to the O to the V to the E

LOVE is giving sumone power to break ur HEART
but you trusting them not to :'(

screw you :D

so how my JPJ test?
it was ok
but not good :D
xlepas bukit lah tadi
on the road ok lah :)
itu pon markah kesian
otak die!!!
halo perlu ke i betol kan cermin pandang belakang if dh betul???
well x kesah lah asl kan lulus :(

later nk g last class for bukit
itu pon ayat sikit pakcik tuh
dpt lah class free
just byr for jpj test utk bukit~
well hidup kene pandai ayat cikit
baru lah senang sikit :)
bukan senang nk dpt mcm tuh..

penat sgt hari nie
hari ni kepale otak asik pk kan SABIQ JPJ SABIQ JPJ
penat nk igt psl dia
tapi syg lah :(
sbb tuh igt...
smlm kiteorg gado but as usual i mengalah..

sumtimes i rase give up ngn sume ni
nk lepas kan dia pergi
tapi x sangup hati nk terime kenyataan itu :(
so harap lepas ni x lah terlalu berharap kt dia sgt
now days pon i more understanding sikit~
bia lah die dgn space die~

bukan slalu i jiwang mcm nie
tapi lagu yg kt blog nie dh pon ceritakan apa yg terpendam dlm hati.....

Tuesday, June 9, 2009

the thing that happen today

besok adelah hari NAJAH SYAHIRAH akan pergi membuat jpj test buahahahahaha!!!

kegilaan mendatang ;D

takot x penah hilang d hati :)

tapi ape yg daku boleh buat hny tawakal :)

itu pesan ibunda padaku :D

ily mommy :D

hahaha harini i telah buat sumthing yg SALAH!
tidak itu rahsia :D
hanya ALLAH and ina saja tau
bile i cakap ngn ina an sume mende hilang

bila salah jadi ok balik :)

bila sakit jadi baik :)

bile suke jadi lebih gembira :D

bile sedih jadi happy ;)

bile mara jadi rede :p

xtao lah die paling baik bagi i :)
she say tht im her evrything but she knw she's to me is my comfy world..
she knw i love her more tht anything.
she knw evrything i feel
ily :D

well now evrything bout me and my boyfie back to normal
i give him more space
more trust
more evrything
i love him
and he knw it
and i knw he love me too
that's good enough 4 me~

i knw sumtime we always fight over stupid thing~
and me doesnt always understand u
plus im always bugging u with stupid question tht i already knw the answer
and u always use @##$%@^ words :D
but deep down in my heart i want u to knw
i always gonna love u
and forever i will.....
no matter what i say or do
i still love u :)

Saturday, June 6, 2009


smlm best sgt :D
ina dtg umah then mlm kiteorg kua g tgk wayg hahaha
3D babe!! :)
best :D

citew monster vs alien :D
cite mmg kelaka abis ;p

then ina beli earing for our friendship ni ha comel siot

pastu balik umah pe lagi
snap pic byk2 mcm ape nth
lastly end up ngn pic yg menawan !! ;p

actually i dh lame x sehappi mcm nie :(
last g sunway lagoon tuh happi sikit je
tapi bile nan ina smlm mmg happi gile
x tao asl

well arini happi sikit ngn sabiq
sbb kiteorg kua dari pukul 6 smpi 8lebih
g mkn tuh jew
i knw he love me
but sumtimes i dont want to knw
i hate it
bcoz i love him too
but i dont want it!!
im afraid of loving sumone
im afraid to losing sumone

ya i knw im always build a great-wall of china in front of me
so no one will climb up to take my heart away~
but he does dat bcuz he love me
but he always hurt me

why do ppl do that thing?

why do u want to love me but hurt me?

why i should love sumone like u?

but i always do~
i always and 4ever love u

u r not my evrything but my only thing i have~

Monday, June 1, 2009

happy tree friends

p/s:ini terlampau best :D


tension nyek ari nie :( rase nk belasah org!!!
gado ngn sabiq psl duit arghhh
i dont care bout tht anymore~

i've lots of stupid thing in my head they all keep playing with my mind~!!!!

dgn JPJ test nyer plus college stuff~
JPJ test 10th of July around da corner babe!!!
OMG !!
still takot nk drive nie arghhhhhhh!!!!

plus plus nk g college dh 1st july nie bapak die
byk barang babe nk beli
plus kene call En.Rasidi nk conferm kt asrama lagi~
nk kene beli baju kurung byk2!!!
stationary lagi
dh la kene gune pensel warne plak tuh!!
kene beli byk2 pen yg ade kale x kire lah pape pon~
wah tension~!!!!
kene beli laptop~

kepale dh serabot~ XP
xlame lagi meletop lah nie!!!!!